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God Didn't Want Me to Go On a Mission--And That's Okay

MR says: Mormon culture can often put pressure on members to fit certain timelines--but following a typical pattern is not how life works. We are all unique, and we are all loved by our Heavenly Father because of that. We should all remember to seek personal revelation to find out what path our Heavenly Father would have us follow.

A little over a month ago I made a decision that altered my entire future. As you know (if you follow me on any social media) I was called to serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints to Little Rock Arkansas. I was so excited and honored to serve The Lord and the people of Arkansas. My love for those people instantly started to grow after I opened my call.

As the days and weeks passed I started to feel uncomfortable about my mission. I knew I was qualified to serve a mission and I didn't have fear about failing. I just felt uncomfortable and that is a foreign feeling to me. Being comfortable in every situation and making the best of what I can is a talent Heavenly Father blessed me with so I knew that something was wrong.

Life kept going, school was flying by, I went on dates quite frequently, and every day I thought about Arkansas. Normal life right? You are probably asking yourself there is nothing uncomfortable about that life, why in the world did you feel that way?

Well, I was frequently asked questions about my mission, which I didn't mind, the uncomfortable part about it was that I felt like I was lying whenever I answered those questions. I wasn't lying though! It was real! Serving a mission was real! What was going on??

Read the rest of this story at courtneycase.blogspot.com