Ambiguous Loss and What Birth Mothers Feel

Like a first-time mother, she anticipates the birth day of her son. Her anticipation, though, is laced with angst. When she feels the first contraction, she slows down. Her thoughts wonder. She is ready to birth the baby. Yet, she is not ready to see his face.

The contractions grow stronger. She knows it’s time to go. Her mother drives her to the hospital. They are taken to the delivery room where her midwife is waiting.

After hours of hard labor, a failed epidural, and hours of pushing, the baby boy is delivered. His cries pierce the air. All breathe a collective sigh of relief.

The hardest part hasn’t even come.

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