Infertility is a very tender and personal subject. It’s often a silent struggle. You want to talk about your feelings, but it can be difficult and awkward to bring up in a conversation. Plus it’s complicated, as each couple has their own variation and story. Often well meaning friends and family members make comments or suggestions that seem hurtful rather than supportive. I also didn't know that you can have fertility problems after having a child, which is referred to as secondary infertility. Infertility is more common than I had previously known, affecting about 15 percent of couples in the United States (American Fertility Association).
Recently we found out that it is unlikely we will ever be able to conceive a child naturally again. This came as a huge shock to me. I knew that we had some minor issues, but I felt confident that we would be able to resolve them soon with the right kinds of medications. Although we have faith that the Lord is able to work through these complications, we are also faced with the real possibility that we might not have more children or that we might have a chance at just one more child with expensive and invasive fertility treatments. I long for the family I thought I would have. I was suddenly thrown onto a new path and I am trying to figure out how to navigate through this new course. I’m trying to understand and follow Heavenly Father’s will for me. I am trying to figure out what lessons I am supposed to be learning from this.