Latter-day Saint Life

What I Wish I Had Known the First Time I Caught My Husband Looking at Pornography


Read this powerful personal account of a wife and what she learned while helping her husband fight a pornography addiction.

When I was a 24-year-old new mom I caught my husband looking at pornography on our computer for the very first time. I didn’t know anything about pornography addiction. The Internet was brand new.  Who knew this smut even existed on this thing called the World Wide Web? I naively believed him when he told me it was a two-month problem.  It never even crossed my mind that he could be an addict. I had absolutely no idea what follow-up questions to even ask him.

I needed an education on addiction, but that education would sadly have to wait another 16 years, until I caught him yet again. The evidence, coupled with all the talk I heard about addiction from my friends and on those 5th-Sunday lessons at church, finally opened my eyes. My husband was an addict.

How I wish I could go back in time, take my young, tender-hearted self out for ice cream, and say, “Oh Sweetie, sweetie, here’s what you need to understand. At least learn these three things. There is more to learn, but for now these three could change your life.”  

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