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Watch: Poker led him to a meth addiction. Here’s how prayer led him to hope


It started out with some poker home games, and on occasion, visiting a casino to play. Then one night his friend handed him a pill so he could stay awake and alert to gable all night long. He later found out the pill was meth, and Josh was hooked immediately.

In a new video in the His Grace series, Josh shares his story and how prayer brought love and light back into his life after addiction.

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When Josh’s wife learned the truth about his addiction, she took their two children and left. And that prompted Josh to change.

“I went back into our home and I told myself, ‘I have two decisions here. One, I could keep doing what I was doing, which would eventually lead to death either by hand or the drug. Or two, I could get clean.’ And I knew I couldn’t do it alone,” Josh says in the video.

Josh started to meet with his bishop, sometimes meeting with him three to four times a week. His bishop encouraged him to focus on reading the scriptures and praying. One day, after coming across a scripture in Matthew about how the Lord openly rewards those who pray in secret, he decided to say a prayer in his small closet.

“I had pleaded for help. I had asked for forgiveness,” Josh said in the video. “I had asked for change and help before, but this time was different. ... I said, ‘You know what, OK, I put myself into your hands. You tell me what to do, and I’ll do it.’ And the moment I said those words, I felt love. I felt light.”

Watch the full video on YouTube to hear more about what Josh learned about God’s love. 

Note: This article was originally published in January 2021.

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